what if   
10:11pm 08/02/2009
 
mood: drained/in love
i just disapeared.
i don't mean as in died
i mean just disapeared
no more blogging, no more vampirefreaks, no more deviantart


think anyone would notice (no bambi that doesn't include you)


think anyone would care



think i'd ever die?		  
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oh well   
11:07am 08/02/2009
  start again...

isn't it strange how when i finnaly want her
she finnaly leaves me alone

so scared of hurting her that i pushed her away to the point of no return

all i want is to see her happy again

i tried my damn hardiest to make it this weekend

but i guess i was more scared of being happy.

so i guess its time for me to start again

return to the life i wantted

and see if i can't live my life through this self distructive route

i can't believe she's done this

after everything...

she chooses comfort
and i'm just wrap in wire		  
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paranoid about andrew   
09:13pm 05/02/2009
  everyone i love seems to be going off with andrew.
i feel like i've been left behind, because no-one wanted to follow me
i wonder sometimes about the purpose in running my own path, when everyone else just seems to fall into mainstream and sweep away to the start.
why does no one fight what they want in there future, rather then worry about a saftey net when life gets you down.

i wish i understood the coping methods of others, because i've lost mine.		  
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bleading heart emo ranger   
07:36pm 02/02/2009
  has died... and chronics ran out of funding... so that just leaves....erm... oh yea... me mopping over sweedish girls that i don't want to fuck, just love playin turn on games with.


i miss my sweed.		  
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isn't it sad   
08:21pm 25/01/2009
 
mood: missing amber
music: give head if you've got it
when you only want to talk to one person, and you can't even be arsed to sit in a chat room.

damn i miss her too damn much some times.		  
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get a life   
05:33pm 30/12/2008
  move out
live in poverty
earn enough to live
see your mates
get out of bed
meet your wife
have a kid


GET A LIFE

stop worrying about money.		  
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works hard   
07:10pm 22/12/2008
 
mood: busy
music: beat that my heart skips
cause no-one fucking works at it.

lost all my contacts, and i'm starting a new business... how the fuck am i suppose to start advertising my work...		  
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re: bambi...   
05:49am 16/12/2008
  Happy Dead-day Zepth Warr!!

According to our records (if you filled in the stuff correctly) you have been alive for yet another year! Just think of all the pain and suffering your mother went through to birth you on this very day! I hope it was all worth it for her! :)

Seriously, do have a good birthday, and party hard for all of us here at DeadJournal.com!		  
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3d work   
01:58am 29/11/2008
  tehe just designed my self a 3d island, and played with bryces tools. rather impressed with the work.. and it's a demonstration of what i will be able to do in the future.... though i did also cheat and use a pre-defined island as a contrast to my current skills lol.  
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To do.   
11:41pm 24/11/2008
  [http://zepth.deadjournal.com/51477.html?view=35605#t35605]

graphics tablet needs linux drivers writting.
before i can do that, i might as well get vista on
to get vista on i have to clear a hard drive
reboot onto CD
format drive

  1. Vista


    • Microsoft

    • Games

    • Plug n play

    • Corprote tools

    • Gimp


  2. XP<


    • Winborg

    • Media Center


      • vlc

      • Remote control

      • winamp

      • adobe suit





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  • ubuntu


    • GIMP





    • torrents


  • unformatted


    • [shit forgot what needed to be wrote for linux... i'll fill it in later.    		  
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    sorry bambi   
    10:17am 19/11/2008
      i know i've not been updating this a lot for you to read so i'll give u a quick summary of whats been bugging me recently...

    have a huge issue with being horny, which makes me not want to meet beki yet, cause that means i'll wana fuck her, and that will just fuck up something good.
    my oldest internet mate might be finnaly fuckingmeeting me soon ^^
    my phone committed suicide...
    i now class my self as under weight, and have to eat more .... FUCK    		  
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    ahhh no wonder   
    06:17am 04/11/2008
      I installed a penguin to train the cat  
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    Why rules can't be cast in stone.   
    03:31am 04/11/2008
      I spent 20years in education.
    I got into trouble on several occasions,
    I thought it was my fault.
    I thought i didn't understand.

    If i was to go there now,
    The school would change

    The benches would be grinned on
    The gym equipment would be ran on

    The music department would be recked
    and we'll play new music in the playground.

    I would tag the English block
    with badly written poetry

    I would have described why the mona lisa
    is a rubbish piece of art work in perfect English

    i would paint knights in space on the history doors
    and dragons in armor on the science doors

    The business block would be turned into a sellers market
    and the IT department would become the art department.

    and my name would be all over it.
    so that when they catch me,
    I can ask why theirs' rules on life
    "when chaos works perfectly fine"    		  
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    Structure   
    10:20pm 03/11/2008
     
    music: linkin park i know uuteaf
    I've got a lot of structure right now because of something my dad said. He said that my work was too irrational and lacked structure...well so does my right style, so i've abonded the on-line puirsuit of writting my story, and i shall only be returning with updates as i run out inspiration.

    Keep track of my vampirefreaks.com/zepth i'll be using their cults and also zepth @ gaiaonline.com to try out the dice version of my card game.    		  
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    oh fuck...   
    08:11pm 03/11/2008
     
    mood: high on life
    music: HIP hop album old...great
    I think i'm trying to change ellinor into joey... how scary.

    in my story the AI that helps to defeat the robots is called JOAI but i've not wrote that part up yet.

    JOAI pronounced joey is an AI that learned what humans wanted, instead of thinking for it's self it thinks for others, not replacing humans, but aiding them in development... this AI is what brings the destructive force of NUAI - national union AI. (JOAI - just old AI)

    There is a war coming and instead of being the cause of the first war, i'm gona be the rebellion war, ak: the war after the war. Now i quit uni, however Andy was a lot like me, and thinks differently to me, so what if this war is just between me and my brother... hmm interesting, opens up new names because now they don't have to be based around Z... yes, that gives me more structure and makes me want to change one of my cult entry posts.

    gona update my VF sig to say "Thank you for being in my life. x"

    a1 = andy = MAKE MY LIFE PERFECT
    z0 = Zee = Make everyoneS life Worthy
    k5 = karl = survive

    with out the three points and all the possibilities in between is what makes life perfect, it is only the realisation and adapatation to the world for what it is that makes us fearless and makes us enjoy every second of life

    belief is the greatest system ever, the fault was forcing everyone to believe, by simply allowing our destruction we will be come a stronger race. haha. belief in anything is fun.    		  
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