drawing
i keep doing stupid little drawings...
I hate them
Each one gets to a certain point
and i just look at it
it's wrong
draw something else
do something else

i really want to draw her

as i remember her

but the dream ended without me bein able to see her

so i forgot her pritty little face, and only remember her black hair

grrr feel so bored and useless...

only 'cut' again yestie... little peice of glass... it stung... i sort of enjoyed it... but not like what i used to... seems like most of my emotions apart from self hatrid are switched off... oh well, at least the odd thing makes me smile though.

p.s. keeping people off your mind is hard