Current mood:

scared

bleading heart ranger
i never knew i could miss her this much
i gave her shit about being with me
and now... i just want to be with her
it's not just cause i'm lonly
it's not a mind game
this girl cared for me
despite my own self hate
and now everyday that she doesn't talk to me is torture. i can't believe she actaully stoped talkin to me


i wish she did it sooner... then maybe i would have asked her out...
god i feel fucking retarded. i miss her... but i'm about 90% sure she's happier now that she's not thinkin of me... but i mean... she is just so damn perfect, from the way she fucks, to the way she laugths. the way she taunts to the way she cries. she is the only person to have ever been able to make me happy just because i cheered them up... and i miss being her friend, more then i miss being her fuck. i miss hearing her rants about school, i miss her yelling at her sister when we're on the phone. i miss the girl so damn much... that i don't want to be allowed back into her life...

hopefully a year will pass, and we'll meet again... then maybe circumstance will be different... and i'll treat her right.
but until that day i miss her... and i want no-one till i can kiss her